The older I get, the more I start to feel the Universe spitting at me. For instance, every night on my way home I pass by my grandmothers house. It is a huge house, and most of my immediate family calls it home. Every night, as I walk by on my way to my apartment, I find the gate open. Open gates are a bad thing. My grandfather, when he was alive, made sure the gate was shut at all times. It's not about not letting stray dogs in, etc. It's about keeping the good in and the bad out. Maybe it makes sense only to me and my superstitious clan, but it works. So, every night, I close the gate.
I close it and then I head on home.
But tonight, as I was approaching the last step up to the gate, I fell. I fell hard. Even as I am typing this my knee is throbbing. This is karma. This is what I get for giving attitude to people for that past few days because of my own disdain over what has become my life. Just like the other day when I helped a woman find her credit card and she likened me to an angel. I pretended not to acknowledge the compliment. And then 20 minutes later, as I was at the Harvard Square station, waiting for the train, I spotted a girl with cute pink sandals.
I told her they were nice. She ignored me. Karma.
Maybe I'm just becoming one of those disenchanted people who see everything as a slight against their existence, but honestly, I've always seen people get what they give. I gave out negative energy, and in return I am at home nursing a bum knee.
Causality.
Maybe next time I'll wear knee guards.
3 comments:
...and shoulder pads, football helmet, chest guard, shin guards, protective gloves...
Sorry you are having an existentially rough time of it, Girl. Take heart. This too shall pass. More important than focusing on some Universal payback system of reciprocation is the idea that everything is transient in nature.
That should make a Happy Thought!
Cheers, Love and Grace,
Erik
You talked about Karma, and Rich talked about free will. I do not think we have the ability to control what is going to happen to us, whether it is a good thing or bad. Example: If I had the ability to remove the dark cloud over my head by removing the negative energy I project, it would stand to reason that people who project negative energy back at me should also have a dark cloud over their head too, right? I mean if my suffering is from the bad things I did to others or the negative thoughts about them shouldn't they suffer similar things for having bad thoughts or actions back at me?
I do however, get to decide if the chunk of wood goes into my stove to heat my house or stay out there on the ground and rot.
It's so true what they say - no good deed goes unpunished!
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